Elizabeth started her dance class today. Let me just say she was so cute! She was not so happy with it at first, but she slowly began to come out of her shell. The more we go the more she will get into it. She looks adorable in her outfit and ballet slippers. We practiced a bit after her nap today and she just looked so cute doing the little moves. Before I got her dressed this morning she said to me "Mama are we going to put our foot on our ankle and dance like Cinderella?" OMG she is so ADORABLE!!!!! After class the teacher gives them lollipops, so after we got home I asked her what her favorite part of the class was and she said the lollipops! I was rolling. I met another Mom there who was so nice. She invited me to a Mommy and Me class that she runs at St. Andrews Church, I think we are going to try it out. It will be a good way to make some new friends. Here are pictures from this morning.
Putting on the tights:
All ready:
Showing Mommy some Cinderella dance moves:
My little sleeping beauty. I took these last night when I did my last check of the night:
Now I want to just put a few things that Elizabeth has said or says in here for safe keeping:
Move asshole - she said that to Owen a few months ago. She got if from her Daddy who always says that to Owen. After she said it I thought I heard her wrong so I said "what" and Elizabeth said "yeah this fucking asshole just hit me in the back", I then said oh and turned around and laughed my head off!
Fwing = swing
Wamb = lamb
Yeyow = yellow
I'm a big girl to do it = I can do it, I'm a big girl
I need to get out so I can paint my whips = she said that while she was playing in my bathtub (no water) at the old house - I was putting on my lip gloss - it means I have to get out to paint my lips.
I was reading over my hand written journal last week. The journal is from the time that we decided to do IVF up until Elizabeth's first birthday. It was really neat to read and remember what we went through with the IVF, and then the excitement of finding out we were pregnant, and then of course my being convinced I was having a boy only to be over the moon about the fact that I was having a girl. I was also so happy to read that my ppd was not that big a deal. I suffered some ukie stuff, but not for long. It was there a few days, then I felt great, then it came around the time of my period, but then it left. I wrote so much about how I loved my baby to no end. How beautiful she was, how fun she was, how amazed I was, and how HAPPY I was. I'm so lucky that I did not get the horrible ppd that I've read some women have had. How blessed am I? Very very blessed. From day one I thanked God for my beautiful girl, and I continue to do so everyday. I need to forgive myself for having ppd (a dear friend told me that over the weekend). I think the way for me to move towards forgiveness is that I need to realize that I was really feeling normal emotions, yes I probably cried more than most new mothers, but most new mothers do feel the way I was feeling. I also need to remember that my life changed in a huge way, and I was not in any way prepared for it. I went from being a career woman living life in the fast lane, to stay at home Mom with no sleep. It was normal for me to feel like I was a little lost. I know I can move towards forgiving, because when I look back to the first six weeks I feel the love, the amazement, the joy, the blessing, the wonder, the happiness....it so helps to type this out, to remember that I was and still am sooooooo incredibly happy to be Elizabeth's Mommy. Thank you God for blessing me.
Ok, I had to get that out. Now I will move on to what we did today.
Elizabeth and I went to my sister's house today. Madison was there so Elizabeth was so happy. She loves that baby so much. It is beautiful to see them together. They hug each other! Madison is six months now, but she reaches out to hug Elizabeth (and gum her a bit!). It's so cute. Elizabeth spent a lot of time reading books to Madison, and Maddi seemed to love it. I just love watching Elizabeth with her. She changes her voice to talk to her, and she gives her these adorable smiles. I love it. I know Elizabeth would love being a big sister.
I have to say something, and I know this will probably sound crazy, but I need to get it out. Sometimes I don't think my sister likes my daughter. Don't get me wrong, I know she loves her, but sometimes the way she is with her seems like she doesn't like her. I can't explain it. I think my daughter feels it too. She certainly treats my sister much differently than she does Tom's sister. With Andrea she is crazy happy and full of joy. She adores Andrea. With my sister she just isn't the same. Kinda sad. Hmmm.
"Look Mama,an excavator!" That is the word of the day, excavator. It is a construction machine that digs big deep holes in the earth. Elizabeth loves the hard machinery that she sees around our neighborhood. She was asking me the names of all of them, and since I had no idea I bought her a few books on same and we both got an education! Now I know the name of all of them. On the way to school today she was calling our the names of all the machines she saw working on the turnpike. So cute.
We had a busy day today. Elizabeth's grandparents came with us to class today. It was so nice. They got to see how her preschool works. I think they had a good time. After school we all met up with my sister-in-law, Andrea, for lunch. It was nice. After lunch Elizabeth and I went over to my friend Michelle's house. We played there until 5:00, and then headed home. Needless to say Elizabeth was beyond tired, and she was in bed by 7:15. Very tired girl. Tomorrow is going to be very busy too.
A few weeks ago I put an ad up at FAU for a babysitter. I got a bunch of responses, and this past Sunday I hired a girl named Heather. Very nice girl, and she is so loving to Elizabeth. I had her come by today for a few hours. I did a bunch of stuff around the house, and she had a chance to get to know Elizabeth. They both had a good time. I think this is going to work out really great. As we were walking her out to her car Elizabeth took her hand, and said "Heather you are my friend". It was so cute. Then she gave her a big hug. Very good sign!
We went to music this morning, that was fun. While Heather was here one of the things I was able to do was get a bunch of pictures into frames. Most of them were ones of Elizabeth. Now I just need to decide where I'm going to display them.
I found out today that a good friend of mine (one that I have not seen in forever) is prego with her third baby. She was very very suprised, and not too happy at first, but now she is with the program. I'm so happy for her. The weird thing is I told her years ago that she would have another baby and she laughed at me and said "no way". Well I put my hands on her and said a little prayer, and look what happened!!!!! I'm not kidding, I really did that. I think it worked. AND if that is the case...Jamie you better watch out b/c I did the same thing to you!
This weekend we are going to be busy. Our old house is back on the market so we have to paint there tomorrow, and then Sunday we will take Elizabeth to do something fun.
Here are my pictures of the day:
Elizabeth ready to leave for music class
Elizabeth eating the cheese that we put on our homemade pizza:
Well today was a nice day, nothing exciting. We went down to Broward to visit my Mom. Had a good time. Elizabeth loves to see her Gram. They colored together, and played. Very cute. After we left my Mom's house we went over to see Marlene and Madison. Madison had some little friends over and there was my little girl trying to keep up with the big girls! She was so adorable! We went out to eat at Long Horn for dinner, very good. So now I'm home, and ready for bed. I watched Lost, man is it GREAT this season. I love it! I'm going to go read a book and then pass out. I'm reading Heart Stopper by Joy Fielding (she is one of my favorites - I've read all of her books), it's a great book - yes I'm recommending it! Tomorrow we have music and our new babysitter is coming over for a "test run" in the afternoon. Ok, like I said nothing exciting :) No pictures...but I will take some tomorrow.
About two weeks ago we bought Elizabeth a swingset. We found a really great place in Palm Beach that let us try each swingset, and they had great prices to boot. So today the swingset arrived. I showed the guy where to set it up, and then proceeded to put Elizabeth down for her nap. Well she did not sleep a wink, she was so friggin excited about her swingset. I finally took her out of bed, and by that time the swingset was all set up. Well we spent 2 1/2 hours playing on the swingset this afternoon. It is AWESOME, and Elizabeth LOVES it! At one point Tom called while we were playing and Elizabeth very excitedly asked to talk to her Daddy. She got on the phone and said "Honey, I got a swingset!" She called him honey b/c she hears me call him that all the time. It was so cute. I think I'm almost as excited about it as Elizabeth is! She is going to get years of enjoyment from this. So without further delay here are some pictures of the swingset:
My little swing girl has become a bit of a photographer. She likes to take my camera and take her own pictures. I think I am going to get her that Fisher Price digital camera for her birthday. It is made for her age group, and they pad it up so it can be dropped. I think she would love it. Anyway here are a few pictures she took today.
Me:
Mazy:
Owen - who would not stay still:
Not too bad for a 2 1/2 year old! She is so much fun. Plus she says the funniest things, she just blows me away. Next week we start a dance class. I can't wait, she will wear tights, a leotard and ballet slippers. She is going to be so adorable!
Well Elizabeth and I went to the Property Appraiser's Office today. We had to turn in our paper work for the portability. After that we hit Petsmart, and then, by request of my little reader, the library. I just love taking her to the library, she is so cute about books. She loves to be read to, but she also loves the read the books by herself. Very busy morning. We had breakfast and lunch out today. After her nap we spent a good bit of time playing outside. She loves to be out in her backyard. We bought Mazy a chain and steak for the yard so she won't squeeze through the fence and go in the neighbors yards anymore. So far she seems ok with it. I am so tired tonight. Elizabeth was up at 4:00 having a bad dream. Once I finally got her settled again I could not fall back to sleep. I hope there are no bad dreams tonight.
Here is my picture of the day, plus a picture from the past.
Elizabeth sitting on top of her table in the playroom, she thought she was so funny (so did I)
First let me say, yes I'm back. Am I a complete goof ball, you bet! I just can't shake the feeling that complete strangers are reading my journal, and looking at my princess. Plus they could copy her picture and do anything they want with it. Gives me the creeps. I really tired to stay at blog spot, but I just couldn't do it. I was even writing differently b/c I felt weird. I was writing to strangers, I HATED that! So I am back to stay.
Anyway.....today we went back to our old neighborhood in Pembroke Pines for the 3rd birthday party of our old neighbors daughter. It was a really cute party, and Elizabeth had a good time. They bought the little girl a barbie house and a barbie car for her birthday, and Elizabeth loved it. Elizabeth does not have any barbies so it was cute to see her play with them. I will have to keep barbie in mind for her third birthday. We got home, and I fixed dinner and we sat down to eat. After dinner Elizabeth had strawberries so she stayed at the table while I loaded the dishwasher. After doing so I look up and see Elizabeth's little legs and feet on the table. I tell her to please take her feet off of the table, and that we don't put feet on the table. She then says something that I can't hear and proceeds to keep her feet on the table. So I walk over to her and ask her again to please take her feet off of the table. She then repeats what she said the first time, and this time I heard her. She said "Daddy does it in his office". I almost hit the floor! She meant that Daddy puts his feet up on his desk in his office upstairs. It was friggin CUTE the way she said it. She was frowning, and her little feet with her little mary jane shoes looked so damn ADORABLE on the table! Tom and I were rolling. Needless to say after we ate her up for being so cute, we explained that putting feet up on a desk is very different from putting them up on the dinner table. I love my little girl so much, she is the BEST EVER!
We had such a good time at school today. Again, I have as much fun as Elizabeth does! The kids made english muffin pizza today. Elizabeth was so cute putting the cheese on hers. She wanted nothing to do with the sauce, only the cheese! The she was sneaking bites of the cheese. Love it. Once it was cooked she decided she was not hungry so of course I ate the pizza. She was too interested in the story her teacher was reading, plus she was busy calling out the names of the vegtables in the book and on the flash cards. I was so proud of her speaking up on class! It was beautiful. After class we stayed in the livingroom and ate lunch with some of my mommy friends and their little ones. We talked about how it can be a bit isolating being a stay at home Mom. We all agreed how much we love it, but that at times we feel a bit lonley. It was nice to hear that other Moms feel the way I do at times. I'm so blessed to be a part of another Mommy group.
After checking out other places to blog I have decided to stay here in good old LJ land! The main reason I'm staying is because I just love to post pictures of my beautiful little girl, and it makes my stomach turn to think that on some of these other blog sites anyone and everyone can look at not only my journal, but my pictures as well. I just don't like the idea that strangers can read my journal and look at my pictures. Sooo I'm here to stay. I think I am also going to get a paid account.
Anyway.....I've had a very different start to my week. For the past couple of months Elizabeth has been doing this thing with her tongue when she is feeling nervous or shy. She kinda sticks it out a little, or she bites down with her teeth. Very hard to explain in words. So yesterday her teacher calls this to my attention, and tells me I should bring it up to our pediatrictian b/c it could be something with her jaw or tongue muscle. She also said she did not think it was anything to worry about and that it could just be a habit or that she is doing it when she feels nervous, anxious or shy. I told the teacher that I was aware of what she was doing, and that I was ignoring it b/c I did not want to draw attention to something that I felt Elizabeth would eventually stop doing. Ok, soooo I let what her teacher said get to me a little bit. How could I not, I love my daughter to death and it scares me to think that something could be wrong with her. To put my mind at ease I took her to the doctor today. Let me just say we have the BEST pediatrician. He is tops. He listened to me, and was so nice to both me and Elizabeth. He told me right away that we had nothing to worry about, and that what she was doing was just a little habit. He checked her out completely to make me feel better, and Elizabeth even did the tongue thing once so he was able to see what I was describing. He talked to me and assured me that Elizabeth has nothing wrong with her and that this tongue thing will pass (he then joked and said "then there will be something else to worry about"), he also told me to ignore it. He said we should not give her more or less attention when she does it, just ignore it and give a poker face. So I feel better. I also talked to him about the potty training. I started that with her today, and she went pee pee in her little underpants all day. Her doctor said to back off, and when she is ready it will be like a light switch went off and she will just start doing it. He said kids do it at all different ages, some are ready at 21/2, but most are not ready until closer to the third birthday. I'm going to stop the training for now, and try again next month. I'm not worried about it, I know it will happen when she is ready.
I helped Elizabeth make adorable Valentines Day cards today to send to her Grandparents and Aunt. We also made one for Daddy. She was so proud! I took her to the post office to mail them, and she loved that. She really likes to do crafts, it is so cute to watch her. She is just so much fun.
We went to the library today, had a great time. Elizabeth loves books so much, and that makes me so happy. It wasn't until after we got home that I realized that I forgot to get the books about the consturction machines! That was the main reason we went to get books. I'm such a blonde sometimes :) Anyway we got some great books plus a few cute dvds and a lullabye cd with songs from the Beatles.
I'm looking into swingsets now. We want to get a really cool one for the backyard. I had one as a kid and I remember spending many happy hours playing on it. Elizabeth loves to swing and slide so she will be thrilled.
I just feel so lucky and blessed to be her Mommy. She is so beautiful, smart, loving, funny, .....I could go on and on. I love getting up in the morning to see her sleepy smile, I love her hugs and kisses, I love her smile, I love her laugh - I just LOVE her sooo much!
Wow has she grown!
God thank you so much for blessing me with this beautiful little person to love and nurture.
Ok I still have baby fever. Do I dare ask God to bless me again? I feel so blessed to have Elizabeth, so blessed in fact that I don't feel I have a right to ask for more. However, I don't believe that IVF will work if I don't have God there with me all the way. I spoke to Roseanne last night, she told me to make an appointment to come in and have a chat with her b/c many of her patients who did IVF have been able to conceive on their own the second time around. That would fantastic if we were able to do that. No shots! Yay! I think I will plan to see Roseanne next week. I don't want to start the whole trying to get pregnant thing (IVF or not) right away b/c I want to drop some weight first. Yes, I'm still working on that! I've been going to the gym every week, and doing WW, so far so good. I found out my friend Sally is pregnant again, I'm so happy for her! She tried to get pregnant for as long as Tom and I did, and it finally happened for her a year after we got pregnant with Elizabeth. Her son is named Aiden and now she is having another boy. So exciting!
I've been very busy decorating the house. I'm having a ball. I just finished the master bathroom, and it looks fabulous!!!! I love it so much. I keep walking in there to just look at it. I told Tom I want to serve dinner in there! It looks so "spa" like.
Elizabeth is wonderful as ever. She "cooks" in her kitchen everyday. I'm so glad Santa brought the kitchen. We have been going on walks everyday after her naps, we love it. She really likes to see all the machines that the construction people use. I am planning to take her to the library to get a book about the machines b/c she asks me the names of them as we stroll by them, and most of them I don't know. So we will both get an education in construction machinery!
Tom bought me a new desk this past weekend, and it arrives on Saturday so I am going to be busy cleaning out the guest/computer room tomorrow.
I'm looking for a new bookcase for Elizabeth's bedroom. I bought her one from Target just before we moved, but it is not big enough! See we really love books, and I'm of the belief that a child can not have too many books (too many toys yes, but not too many books). So I'm going to take the bookcase that is currently in her room, and move it to the guest room. I think I've found a really nice one that has four shelves at Pottery Barn Kids. The bed that we want to get her is from the same store so the bookcase will match her new bed set once we purchase that in the spring. I think I'm going to take a ride up to the Gardens Mall this weekend and pay a visit to PBK.
I still have baby fever :) Should I take a tylenol? I just think I'm at that "ready" stage. Should be interesting to see what happens in this department. I need to make an appt to see the doctor, but at the same time I want to wait until March. Something just keeps telling me March. I'm going to follow that b/c I had the same feeling when I started my IVF journey the first time.
I'm still working on the house. At this point we are trying to put out some nik nak stuff and pictures. We got some money and gift certificates for house stuff for Christmas so I may shop a little this weekend. It's all fun.
All this talk about babies, and then going to see my friend today who has a little girl Elizabeth's age and a baby boy who is 6 months old, makes me really really want to have another one! Elizabeth loves babies so much, I know she would be thrilled with a baby brother or sister. Hmmmmmmm.
Yesterday we went to our new gym. Can I just say it is great to be back at the gym. Elizabeth loved the playroom, and the sitter played with her so nice. When I went to get her out of the room I was given a complete synopsis of what she did the entire time we were working out. I felt like I left her with a private babysitter, it was wonderful. I feel so good about her being in there. It is clean, and full of really nice toys. She had a blast. The gym itself is clean, and the equipment is all new and up to date. I'm so happy we found this place. I'm really looking forward to getting in shape again and finally dropping the weight!
Well I've been so busy. Christmas was WONDERFUL. We had such a great time. Santa Claus brought Elizabeth a kitchen and a stuffed dog (which she named Jordan). She was so excited Christmas morning. We got everything on video. Loved our day. We also had a great Christmas Eve at my in-laws. We started a new tradition for Christmas Eve - we went swimming! They just put in a hearter for the pool so it was fantastic. Since Christmas Eve we have been non stop! My sister Susan arrived from Las Vegas the day after Christmas and we ran her all around town. I miss her, but I'm so happy she is gone! Now we can get back to normal. I'm also happy to put all the Christmas decos away. I love the holidays, but I just want to get back to getting settled in the house and unpacking the rest of the boxes. I will post pictures from the outings with my sister in another post. Here are the pictures from Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.
All ready to go to Grammy & Papa's house:
Dressed up after swimming:
Opening presents:
New baby from Grammy & Papa:
Playing with her new kitchen - she is hardly awake!
Opening presents is so much fun:
Tom opening the awesome camera I got him:
Very suprised and happy:
Me with my new Coach sunglasses on! I was so excited and suprised! Coach sunglasses! I must have been a really really good girl!
Wow and a Coach purse too! I'm so spoiled!
Mazy even got in on the opening action!
Stocking time. Elizabeth was so cute with her stocking! I love these pictures:
Daddy playing kitchen:
Elizabeth with her cousin Madison and her Aunt:
Baby Madison opening her gift, she is so cute!
Emily, Madison and Casey - what a cute family! This is my nephew, Emily and their baby. They are such good parents. So proud of them.
Madison checking out Rudolph:
After dinner:
Fun with the camera:
I love my kitchen:
Elizabeth and her cousin. Elizabeth loves Madison so much. It is so beautiful to see these two girls together. I'm so happy that Elizabeth has Madison to grow up with.
At the end of the night, we were so tired!
Anyway, I hope everyone had a wonderful Chrismtas. I wish you all the happiest and healthiest New Year. God Bless.
